isms&practices: It isn't the end; we are just getting started

Today was hard.

I know that John and I were ready for today. We took all the precautionary measures to be sure that we were. We talked it out (honestly way more than we needed to), and we know that those feelings for each other just aren't there anymore.

This post isn't going to be about that, though. It's done, and we are embarking on new adventures. I want this to be the beginning to an endless amount of success for the both of us. It will also be filled with throwback pictures and a playlist.. So be warned.

So many people have told me, "You are a better woman than me. I would never be that nice to my ex." They're probably right, I am too nice too much of the time. But, that's okay. I was raised that way, and I don't let others push me around. I like to be there for John as a friend. He has been there for me even through this mess. We are always that person for each other, and I am comfortable with that.

This post is going to be a "good luck" type of post. I hope that you, John, are reading this and know how much I love you. I am not in love with you, and you aren't with me. But I am glad we still have love in our hearts for each other. I will always be there in your corner ready to stand up and fight when you are too weak to do it yourself. I will talk about relationships, I will joke until we cry from laughing, and I will celebrate each success.

I hope that you find the woman you want. I hope she loves country music, she supports your dreams, thinks hot dogs are the most delicious food in the world next to your grandma's pork chops, and she wants everything in life you do. I hope she uplifts you, and I hope you have a beautiful family together. With a corgi, too. I hope you get everything you dreamed for and more.

This isn't the end of John and Britiany. It's just the beginning of John who has a friend named Britiany. I am excited to see where we end up in life.

Thank you for a second family. I am so blessed to have known Pap, and I am so blessed to have everyone else in your family in my life now. I love every niece and nephew I have ever been given, and I will always love them dearly. I hope that your family never forgets that I truly felt like I was part of what you all had. Your grandparents taught me so much in the time I've known them, and I pray I am as good a human being as our grandparents have been to us.

Thank you for being there for me through mental illness, losing my grandma, infertility, health issues, and so much more. Thank you for still being a phone call or a message away. Thank you for allowing me to rescue animals even when you hated it. Even when it made you mad beyond your own imagination. Thank you for allowing me to have kids in the most unconventional way and going along with it as my partner. Thank you for allowing me to be wild and allowing me to be conservative. Thank you for watching me grow up and not stopping me. I needed you in my life at that time, and I think God knew that.

I spent a lot of time praying God would show you the path He has set for your life. I truly believe even through this pain and separation He has it all worked out for good. I believe you will do absolutely amazing things in whatever field you dive into. You are hard working, intelligent, and you are skilled. You get that from your Pap.

Anyways, I am ending this with a playlist that reminds me of you and I. Just for fun. I love you, buddy!