I went to a psychic, and I didn't hate it.

Growing up, the thought of a psychic and knowing my future captivated me. I remember when my aunt hosted a psychic party at her house. Basically, you and your friends split the cost of the party evenly, and the psychic comes to the host's home to read everyone's fortunes individually. I wanted to go so badly, but I was told I was too young. Of course, my mom was right. I was much too young then for anything like that, but it still hurt to hear. I wanted to know if my grade school boyfriend was going to be my husband (spoiler: he's gay). I wanted to know if the hard time I was going through would end in something beautiful (spoiler: it always does eventually). The answer was no, plain and simple, with a promise to rethink it when I matured.

For some reason, I never got the chance to go with my mom or aunt over the years. So naturally, as an adult, I contemplated going to see a psychic on my own. I remember living in Fairmont and asking Kailin to go to Clarksburg with me to see the only local psychic I knew existed. We arrived, found out they were open by appointment only, and went to Goodwill instead (the cities have the best thrift stores). That's how I ended up 24 and still not visiting a psychic before in my life. 

My life changed this year though. My world was rocked, flipped upside down, and shook like a nerd for lunch money. That was by far the worst simile I have used to this day, but I am standing by it. I'm committed. 

I got into a divorce which meant I had to figure out a new job/hopefully career, a new home, a new life, etc. I got into the dating world, and I found a guy I really started to like (which was a shocker to be honest). I had so much up in the air, and I didn't know where I was going to go next. Well, I kind of knew... But I was still hesitant. 

That's when Tiffany Willis told me she was going to go see a psychic. He was running a special, and I wanted in! Tiff shot him a message, and he said he could take me, too. I was PUMPED, for lack of a better term. This was a moment I had been wanting to experience almost my entire life. 

The excitement turned to slight fear, and at one point it was a little bit of doubt. Everyone goes through that, I think. It's hard to believe someone can read the future. It's hard to believe that you can get a glimpse into a grand plan for your life. I still joke about it with Chris, sometimes, and he isn't a believer in the process.. Here's a glimpse at him giving me a little grief after I fell in the snow and hurt my knee: 

In all seriousness, though, I was terrified to hear what the psychic was going to say. What if he told me my marriage wasn't over? What if I was fooling myself? At this point, I hadn't developed anything serious with anyone else. I was still healing, growing, and processing my life. It took time to fall back in love with me. I was trying to find solace in others loving me, and that's just not a healthy way to survive. I really didn't know if I wanted to hear what the psychic had to say on my hot mess life. 

Naturally, I let Tiffany go first. Her reading was phenomenal to hear since I know the details of her life, and it made me feel more comfortable with the thought of going next. I have also seen the things he told her come true lately, which is pretty interesting to ponder. In the middle of Tiff's reading, the psychic looked up and asked me if a Gemini had anything to do with my life or if I were a Gemini. I said no, without thinking, but realized a few minutes later my soon to be ex husband, John, is a Gemini,. I made sure to tell the psychic that before my reading, too. 

My reading seems like a blur now, but I remember the highlights. Sorry, I just truly have the worst memory. Also, I was so in the moment that it was hard to keep up.  

The first distinct portion of my reading happened when the psychic started laying out cards and getting two different "personalities". At this point, he didn't know about Chris. I didn't feel the need to tell him. He should know already, right? Oh buddy, I did not know what I was getting myself into. 

He laid another card down and said, "So your husband has blonde hair?" My heart dropped. I told him no. John has black hair. 

I want to pause here and explain something to you. If you've never been to a psychic, you haven't seen the process and how it works of course. Sometimes, a psychic will get a reading on something and you won't think of a connection. They will ask, "are you sure?" They will tell you to think on it, and honestly you usually get a clear connection later on. It's pretty neat to watch. 

I waited for him to ask if I was sure, but that's not what he did this time. He looked at me and said, "Who has light hair then?" I said no one, and he asked again, "Who has light hair?" I told him about the guy I was talking to, and he explained how it made more sense because he was getting two different personalities when he read my fortune. Turns out, I was at a "crossroads" and had to decide to let go of my marriage or let go of the new guy and not see where that goes. Basically: your marriage or your freedom to date and explore the world. 

He told me how both men were great, one has taken care of me while the other will always be there for me if I allowed him. One of them loves me now while the other will love and cherish me if I allow him. The list went on and on. But there was no way to tell me my future until I made that choice. Great, choices. Exactly what I did not want when coming to a psychic. I wanted to know answers. 

Honestly, though, it was kind of refreshing to hear that in the strangest way. I had spent months letting John make choices that directly effected my life, and it really caused a lot of hurt and a sense of no control. It was nice to know the cards were in my hands now. 

Other than giving a detail of a tattoo, that was the most important part of the love life reading.That tattoo part was simple enough. He told me that the man my heart wanted would have a star tattoo on him. Chris has a sun on his arm, so of course that was ironic (or not ironic depending on what you believe).

I did, however, learn some things about my body that I had been suspicious about for years. The psychic knew that I had Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), he knew about my thyroid issues, and he knew that I had a miscarriage (it was always something I knew but told very few people, he confirmed it to be true). I was baffled when he started speaking on my medical life. It started to make it a little more real for me. 

At the end of my reading, I got to ask three questions. This was by far the hardest part for me. I had no idea what I should ask. To be honest, I was living life by the hour and didn't know where to go from there. I didn't know what I wanted to know about my future because in my mind the future was too far away. 

I thought of one important question. Would I find love like my grandma and grandpa? My grandparents are the ultimate love story to me, and I wanted to know if I would live up to my own expectations. The answer wasn't exactly what I wanted, but the psychic told me I wouldn't have their love. I would have a beautiful love story of my own. I would be happy. Honestly, that's all I needed to hear. I just wanted to know that one day I would have a love with someone that brought joy to my life. 

He also told me that I would be married three times. Two of my marriages would leave me a widow. He didn't say which two, though, so that is strange. Also, I don't see myself getting married again, so that was also strange. But that's neither here nor there, it is just an observation I had. 

My next question had to do with my business. Was my jewelry business worth pursuing any further? I had taken a break from the business when the divorce started, so I wanted to be sure it was worth sticking to. He informed me that I would be successful if I stuck to the path I was on. That was a relief to me. 

Lastly, I asked my psychic if I would ever have kids of my own. He told me he didn't like to look into that part of people's futures because it is ever-shifting and changing. However, when he saw mine, it didn't look as though I would. I remember hearing it and feeling no remorse. A younger, married me would have probably cried at the news. In fact, for a long time it was the one reason I wanted to see a psychic at all. This new Britiany was relieved. Kids just didn't seem like something I needed for me to be happy. 

Next, he told me that he didn't see me in the same place I was a year from now. He said I wasn't just thinking of uprooting my life, I had already made the decision. He was correct, too. I was amazed that he knew something I hadn't even told my best friend. 

One very distinct part of my reading happened toward the end when the psychic held his hand up in the "stop" motion over his left shoulder (where the wall stood). He muttered, "Okay, I hear you." Then, he looked directly at me and said, "You have a guardian angel, don't you?" 

I lost my breath momentarily, because I knew exactly who it would be if my guardian angel were there. He told me she was very pushy and wanted to tell me that I was going to be okay. She wanted to tell me to go live my life. I teared up immensely during that. He had perfectly described my late grandma. It gave me a sense of peace and ease. This was the last of my reading, and in my opinion it was a good finish. I felt at renewed.

So the question I know you have on your mind, and the question my psychic Chris asked me, is do I believe in psychic readings now? I'll be honest, at first I wasn't sure what to expect. I didn't know if I would want to hear my reading, and I didn't know if I would believe that it were true. 

After my reading, though, I have to say I am intrigued. There were so many things he said about me and my life that were spot on that I can't sit and deny the truth in them. There were things he knew about me that were impossible to know naturally. I truly am in awe at the experience. So, do I believe in psychic powers? I don't think my answer will sway you one way or the other, but I will say this: I have an appointment later this week. 

What is your opinion on psychic readings or my experience? I would love to hear it in the comments below or on Facebook!